Stop.
There's no point in thinking about things that may never happen.
...although I hope.
With greater hopes/expectations come greater disappointment.
Have I not been disappointed before?
Don't hurt yourself.
It's stupid.
But then I can't.
Some say it's uncontrollable.
I think it can.
If i try hard enough?
But the harder you try, the more you will.
So.
Impossible.
Hopeless.
